Friday, October 31, 2008

Happy Halloween!

So it's the last Friday of the month and that means Critical Mass is making its way through the city. Most people are dressed far I've seen -

peter pan
a german in leiderhosen
an LDS member (suit, tie, backpack. LOL)
a jazzersize group
a chicken
the joker (a la Heath Ledger)
an oil drill
a sperm
abe lincoln (surprisingly, i think i saw 3)

and the best one of all:

Elliot - complete with ET in a basket!!

that was pretty damn awesome. honestly, i was kinda sad that i'm sitting home alone on halloween and i don't even get to have trick or treaters where i live. that totally made my night.

Tuesday, October 28, 2008

i'm awake!

so staying here by myself is turning out to be not so much fun.

i got in the bath at about 9:15 and was reading Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows. i'm close to the end, so i stayed in the bath for quite a while. when i'm here by myself i always think i hear things in the building (day or night), and tonight was no different. i thought i heard someone in the building, but kind of passed it off as nothing, figuring i was just freaking myself out.

then at 11:35, i thought i heard the panic alarm sound (it's a very loud siren with a voice saying "burgler! burgler!" and other stuff. i bounded out of the tub (i honestly have no idea how i got out) an threw open the bathroom door. i stopped dead in my tracks with 2 cats at my feet and listened hard. silence. the alarm wasn't sounding.

it was my imagination.

i hate that about myself! i am always fearing the worst and making shit up in my head. and now i'm wide awake, adrenaline still quickly pulsing through my veins. i almost threw up with some of the let down, so i had to sit down and have a smoke and share my story.

ugh! ok. i'm gonna go back to reading my book - in bed this time - until i pass out from exhaustion.

Monday, October 27, 2008

The Sanctity of Marriage

Yes...let's "protect the sanctity of marriage" so only heterosexuals can get married...because they have such a good track record...

Zsa Zsa Gabor - 9 Husbands
Liz Taylor - 8 Husbands
Lana Turner - 8 Husbands
Mickey Rooney - 8 Wives
Robert Evans - 7 Wives
Jerry Lee Lewis - 6 Wives
Billy Bob Thornton - 5 Wives
Joan Collins - 5 Husbands
Geena Davis - 5 Husbands
William Shatner - 4 Wives
Liza Minnelli - 4 Husbands

Britney Spears - first marriage annulled after just 55 hours
Jennifer Lopez - her first marriage was just 8 months long
Nicky Hilton - also just 8 months for her first
Shannon Doherty - 5 months for one marriage, and 9 months for another
LisaMarie Pressley - married to Nicolas Cage for 3 months and 15 days
Carmen Electra - married to Dennis Rodman for 9 days before filing for divorce.

And these are just the celebrities. There are regular people out there who've been married not even a month before splitting up, and people who've married dozens of times because they haven't found the right person yet.

If you ask me, these marriages are more destructive towards the "sanctity" of marriage than homosexual couples. I mean, the divorce rate is 43%, isn't it? That doesn't seem to be saying a whole lot for marriage.

Honestly, if straight people can ruin their lives by getting married, let gay people do it, too! Why keep all that fun for yourself??

7 days left, people!!

Vow to vote NO on Proposition 8. Don't eliminate my right to marry.

Sunday, October 26, 2008

i'm a silly girl

so i'm working today, as i usually do on sundays, and a couple of guys come into the building, but only one comes into the office. he inquired about storage and didn't like my price, so he went back into the garage. he and his friends hang out for a few minutes and look at the sign in log for my customers. this raises a red flag for me because they're staring at it so intently. i try to pass it off as nothing, then they go outside and hang out in front of the garage. this continues to make me nervous because they are staring into the garage.

my customer, who had been sitting in a chair outside the office, comes in and comments that those guys seemed kind of shady - like they were up to something. i agreed. i peeked outside and they were gone. a couple more minutes pass and one guy is back out front staring in the garage again. i decided to call the police.

i dialed the non-emergency line and described 2 of the men to her and that they were making me very nervous. she put out a call to have someone come by. i expected just one officer because it's just a "suspicious" call. a minute later, there are 6 cops in my garage. i told them what had happened with this guy, just like i did to the dispatcher. one officer says someone mentioned rape. i was shocked. i have no idea where that came from. that's why there were so many cops that showed up. i told them "no, no, no, no, not at all. i was just nervous because i'm here alone and they're staring into my garage and i don't know if they're staking me out or one of my customers." they said "ok, we'll keep an eye out for these guys." i thanked them and they hung out at their vehicles for a moment, seeing if this guy was coming back or not.

a few minutes later, the cops left, then one of the guys comes back and is outside again. i get up the courage (because jose, my maintenance guy, happened to come by) to poke my head out of the garage and ask if he was looking for something or someone. he was waiting for one of my other customers. i told him he had been making me nervous because he was staring into the garage. he apologized for having scared me in any way, he meant no harm. he introduced himself and shook my hand. i felt like such a nervous nelly. lol. i should have just asked up front instead of calling the cops, but this guy had guns all over his shirt and had given me a bad vibe from the start, so i don't feel entirely bad - i mean, i'm alone here, so i have to protect myself.

i called back the police and told them to cancel the call so the cops aren't still looking for this guy.

but, man, where did the dispatcher get rape from? lol. that was weird!

i'm still all jittery from the adrenaline, though. lol. i need a drink!

Thursday, October 23, 2008


Well, round 3 was a Big Fat No.

This time I am disappointed. Not discouraged, though. Definitely not discouraged.

Wednesday, October 22, 2008

I know I said I'd stop, but...

with only 2 weeks left until voting, I can't stay silent while so many struggle with deciding what to do.

The fringe is still here

I decided to keep the fringe. I trimmed them a quarter inch, but i think i need to take them up little more. They look better without glasses but i dont have contacts at the moment. What do you think?

~Sent via email on my Samsung Blackjack~

Tuesday, October 21, 2008

Best Family Costume EVAR!!

So I'm catching up on all you people and I come across a triplet mom who posted a picture of her friend's husband with their triplets (the friends', not the original triplet mom...confusing, i know, but i know what i'm talking about. lol) in Halloween costumes...Dad was a bag of plain M&Ms and the triplets (about 3 years old) were blue, green, and orange M&M candies. How awesome is that?!?! I'm so stealing that idea when I have kids!

Monday, October 20, 2008

Posty McPosterson

I almost forgot to mention that i gave myself bangs lol. I had trimmed a bit of my hair a few weeks back to have a side swept bang that was long enough to tuck behind my ear...last night i cut them shorter to have a longer traditional fringe...well, they kind of take over my whole face. Lol I am torn as whether or not to trim them another half inch or just to let them grow out because bangs are a bad plan.

What do you think? Until a decision is made i will just keep them pulled to the side.

~Sent via email on my Samsung Blackjack~


so this lady wanders in off the street and asks to borrow 2 AA batteries to test a discman that she might buy off someone from the street. I tell her I don't have batteries, sorry. She asks again (while I'm in the middle of telling her no, btw), so I say again "Sorry, I do not have batteries for you to borrow." She goes "But I'll pay you." So I raise my voice "I DO NOT have batteries for you to borrow!"

She gets this disgusted look on her face and was like "You don't have to be mean, I was trying to be polite." I say "Well, I repeated myself 3 times - I do not have any batteries for you to borrow." She stood there kind of stunned for 15 seconds, then says "You can catch more flies with honey than vinegar. You should remember that." "Thanks," I say, and she starts walking out the door. But before she's completely out she says "You know, you're not pretty enough to be that mean."

Hahahaha What??? I'm ugly, so I should be nice to people???

Geezus, people are dumb!

Edited to add:

This song seems appropriate to this post: JoDee Messina - My Give A Damn's Busted

On the radio

This morning, our wonderful San Francisco Mayor Gavin Newsom was on my favorite radio station doing a short interview. He's been the pioneer in this city to legalize same sex marriage. In 2004, he opened up marriage licenses to allow same sex couples to get married. That summer, thousands of gay couples got married, only to have the courts overturn each and every one.

Earlier this year, the state Supreme Court ruled that it's unconstitutional to restrict marriage to only straight couples. Thousands more have married this year, legally. But now there's Proposition 8 on our ballot that's designed to strip our rights to get married, and of course there are commercials for both pro and con. The con commercials have spread lies - saying that if the measure doesn't pass and it remains legal for same sex couples to marry, then it will be mandatory in schools to teach children about same sex marriage and all things gay. They're using scare tactics to get people to vote Yes on the ban. They're also using Mayor Newsom's own words against him. At a rally regarding Same Sex Marriage he said it was coming "whether you like it or not."

Anyway, they were asking him about that statement and how it's being used. He said he has no regrets, but is saddened by the other camp using his words in a negative light. The DJs then took a caller named David who had some concerns about the proposition. Just to preface this, he said he is a black gay man with an 8 year old daughter. He said he's for the proposition (against gay marriage) because he doesn't want his daughter learning about being gay while she's so young. He said that being gay is an "adult lifestyle and choice". He spouted off more ignorant thoughts, but I've blocked them out. LOL. Mayor Newsom then asked if David was educated about the Civil Rights Movement and if he was OK with his daughter being taught about that. He says "Of course, it's history". So the mayor asked him if he'd be OK with his daughter being taught all history - including gay history (Stonewall). The guy kind of stuttered, so one of the DJs asked if David would be upset if a right was taken away from him because he's black. David was like "Well, yeah."

This guy just doesn't seem to understand what an ignoramus he is and I'm shocked that as a double minority (black and gay), he has such a closed minded view about rights that apply to him and he's perpetuating hate and is going to teach his child that it's not OK to be gay and that it's a choice to be gay. WTF is that about? Who chooses to be hated?

Sunday, October 19, 2008

Halloween nails

Orange and black. The nail people thought I was crazy. LOL

~Sent via email on my Samsung Blackjack~

Monday, October 13, 2008

And now in baby news...

Jenn was checking Fertility Friend last night and it looks like we totally hit the nail on the head with the insem. We did the insem on Wednesday night (when I noticed my mucus was soft) and Thursday night and then on Friday I could definitely feel ovulation cramps in my left ovary. Fertility Friend said Thursday was the optimum day.

Of course I'm not trying to get my hopes up too high so I'm disappointed again, but from the start I had a good feeling about this round. I should be able to test as soon as next Friday the 24th as that's day 30 of this cycle, but, like last month, I may wait those few extra days to be sure...maybe I'll test on the 28th or 29th. We'll see.

My temp has steadily climbed over the last couple of days, too, but I'm not sure what that means. My normal temp is about 97.45 - 97.70, but Saturday and Sunday it had been in the 97.9 range. This morning it was at 98.15. So that's a good thing. Hopefully it'll stay up and indicate that I am indeed preggo by not I'll take that darn HPT towards the end of the month, too. LOL. I got side tracked while writing this entry, so I'll stop now because my train of thought is gone for good. LOL.

In the news

So I read on just now about Chicago opening up Pride Campus - a school of about 600 students with emphasis on it being a safe-haven for gay students, though it is for all students. People are calling it, essentially, a gay school.

I, for one, am happy they are doing this. There is already Harvey Milk High School in New York that is for all students who feel harassed in regular schools, regardless of actual sexual orientation or the specific harassment. I think this is a great thing they are doing - allowing kids who might otherwise drop out or flunk out of school a healthy and safe place to continue their education and get therapy to work through the harassment issues.

Frankly, I don't see a difference in opening this school and having single sex schools. I went to an all girls high school and my brother went to an all boys high school. Overall, I think it did us each a lot of good to have a single sex education. I wasn't distracted or intimidated by boys. Classes weren't disrupted by stupid teenage boys trying to impress their girlfriends. It was a comfortable place to be. Sure, I had my own issues going on, but overall, being surrounded by people like me made school a pleasant experience.

I think every metropolitan area should have some sort of safe haven school. What I see going on around the country in hour high schools (in schools of every class - inner city, parochial, private, boarding, suburban, etc.) is not always happy and makes me want to home school my children. But maybe by the time my kids are school age there will have been improvements or I will live in an area that has a good school, not just academically, but socially as well. But even then, appearances aren't everything.

*edited to add*

Going back to the whole gay thing that started this post - I just don't understand the teaching of hate. I can understand the teaching of religious beliefs and that those beliefs don't necessarily agree that homosexuality is something that is real and needs to be accepted. But I don't understand how you teach a small child to HATE someone because they're gay while also teaching that child that God loves and Jesus saves. That's called being a hypocrite and that's just not acceptable. The Bible teaches us that we are all God's Children, does it not? It teaches us to Love Thy Neighbor, does it not?

I am so glad that my high school religion teacher (I went to Catholic school) was of an open mind and taught us that the Bible is a book of stories, written 200 years after Jesus died. He taught us to believe the principles of the stories, but never to take them at their word. He taught us that the story of Sodom and Gomorrah was a lession in how not to be a whore, but to have respect for yourself and not sleep around, not to be prostitutes. He taught us that not lying with mankind as with man meant not to sleep around, not that it meant that men couldn't sleep together. He taught us to have an open mind and an open heart. Thank you Mr. Garvin.

Sunday, October 12, 2008

I *heart* NKOTB

Friday's concert was awesome! I cheered, screamed, danced, clapped, and laughed my ass off. I had almost no voice yesterday. LOL.

I wish I had brought my camera, but I've been so trained not to bring it because venues don't generally allow them, but everyone had a camera. I'm so jealous. My cell phone took crappy pics, so that was disappointing. The boys sang old and new songs, of course, and the crowd went wild the entire time. I have never been to a better concert in my life. The energy of the crowd was so freakin awesome. I want to do it again!!

I wish I'd had money to see them at the Arco arena in Sacramento, too. I heart them so much. It's really ridiculous. haha.

Lady Gaga and Natasha Beddingfield opened for them. Lady Gaga is weird. LOL I like her music, but her show was weird. She's weird. LOL. That's all I can say. If you don't know who she is, Google or Youtube her. Natasha Beddingfield is awesome live. I saw her about 3 years ago at a local radio station's summer concert in Golden Gate Park (for the locals - it was Alice's Now & Zen Fest).

I need to go to more concerts in general. They are so much fun!

Friday, October 10, 2008

All dressed up

I am all dressed up and ready to go...New Kids On The Block, here I come!

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Wednesday, October 8, 2008

It's Go Time!

So my friend R sent me some info to help me get pregnant. The info I had already read was a little different, but this one gave me more things to check and better information on OPK's. I only knew that I shouldn't use my morning pee for the OPK, but figured it'd be OK in the evening or night. WRONG! I'm supposed to use it late morning to early afternoon. I've also been watching for mucus. Well, I found it today when I peed at lunch, so I did the OPK and it showed positive!! Today's only day 15. There was no spike in my temp, either. In fact, I think it was a little lower than yesterday. Well, the OPK does show positive 24 hours before ovulation (although that website says otherwise, but today was the first day I found mucus), so maybe my temp will be higher tomorrow.

I'm excited. I'm very encouraged this time. I also think that if I do get pregnant tonight or tomorrow, my kid's first concert is going to be The New Kids on the Block. LOL. I'm seeing them Friday.

Anyway....wish me luck!!!!

Friday, October 3, 2008

Cycle 3 begins

We got back from Reno on Wednesday evening. Reno was fun. I wish it had lasted longer though. LOL. All vacations are like that, I think - always too short.

I was back at work yesterday and was busy as all get out. It made the day go by pretty quickly, so that was nice. It also proved to be a bit of a distraction from some news from one of my friends. She just found out she's preggo. She's been trying a little longer than me (by a couple months) and is so excited. She has wanted this for a long time. I'm very happy for her. I know she's going to be a great mom. But, of course, I am extremely jealous that it's not me.

I think there is something wrong with me and that's why I haven't gotten preggo yet. I'm ovulating way too late in my cycle - at day 19 or 20. There's not enough time for implantation. I've thought that I have been ovulating twice - once at day 13, and then again at 19, but we've only been trying at 19 because Jenn thinks that's the truer ovulation day. I'm going to start the ovulation kit on day 10 this time and see if I actually am ovulating on day 13 or not.

I have a doctor's appointment next Friday so I'll be talking to her about trying to get pregnant. She's not an OB-GYN, though, just a general practitioner, but maybe she'll have some insight or have a referral. I'm moving in about a month, though, and will have to find a new doctor anyway.

I'm really not surprised at any of this, though. I mean, I know we've only tried twice, but I have had a feeling for years that it was going to be difficult for me to get pregnant. See, when I was a teenager, my cycles were very irregular - anywhere from 28 to 40+ day cycles. That lasted until I was 22 or 23, maybe even a bit later than that. I also terminated a pregnancy when I was 18. That's more of where my worries lie - that the termination did some damage. I know the chances of that are slim, but I still worry. I feel like that's my punnishment - I terminated one life, so now I don't get to create another.

R's pregnancy does give me hope, though, as she terminated a pregnancy in the past and now she's pregnant. I'm just really ready to see a doctor and find out what I need to do to get pregnant. LOL I never thought I'd say I wanted to see the doctor, but this time I really do. I need her to give me good news and advice. In the mean time, I'm going to look up homeopathic ways to increase my fertility.