I just don't know

Can I ask a question?

What's the point in making your own baby food and breastfeeding your child if you're going to turn around and give that same baby a sucker filled with refined sugar and dyes?

I understand people slip when they're trying to feed their children organically and healthily - sometimes you give them a treat of chocolate or a cookie...but a freaking sucker?? That most likely has Red Dye #40 in it?

Yes, I know you can't control what goes into your kids' mouth 100% of the time, but you can't explain away photos of your 8 month old with a sucker in her mouth. And above the sugar and dye you are giving your child, this sucker is on a stick! It's dangerous to give a small child a sucker. That child could fall and that sucker can get shoved right down his or her throat.

I realize that I am not a parent yet, but I think like one. Yes, I know that parents are always very well intentioned but when you're in the moment with a child, you make decisions you never thought you'd make, but giving a small, tiny child a sucker is just a poor decision all around.

Hate me all you want for this opinion, but it's just that - my opinion.

Worst Christmas Eve Ever

I am seriously sitting here in tears because I've had such a sucky day and night.

A manager that I work with have never gotten along and she really pissed me off tonight. She's the most condescending person I've ever known, not to mention one of the laziest people I've ever worked with and today was no exception. I wanted to slap her.

I was already on edge because I'm having to spend the night alone. I've never been alone for Christmas Eve and Christmas morning before. Ever. In my entire life. I was already depressed about that, but I guess it's part of growing up, right? Realizing that you're not as important as you think you are to people. Sure, I could have slept on my parents couch, but which is more lame - being alone at home or sleeping on your mom's couch? Honestly, I chose quiet depression over the alternative that may have been better for my mental state.

And then, a present I was given by another coworker went missing. I'm 99% sure I know who took it, but what am I to do? I just let it go. There was a spare that this coworker had gotten (she counted an extra person by mistake), so I took the extra. They were all the same thing, so it's not like it was something I'm missing by taking the extra gift, but the fact is that mine and the spare were in 2 separate places and should never have been mixed up, for one. Secondly, the person I'm sure took it had a gift of her own, so why would she take that plus the extra?? That's just being greedy and rude.

I seriously feel like people have been out to break me for some time. They've finally succeeded, so congratulations to them.

Now do you see why I hate people?


Dear God,
Make me a bird
so I can fly far
far far away from here.

2 Steps back

The CA State Supreme Court ruled today to uphold the ban on Gay Marriage as approved by 52% of voters last November.

They said that a simple majority has the right to decide the civil rights of other human beings.

Frankly, what the Supreme Court did was cowardly. A year ago they gave us the right to marry and now they're afraid of pissing off 52% of the state. It's complete bullshit.

This is a huge disappointment. I cannot believe the idiocy of this decision.

For once, I'm actually out of words. I cannot express my anger, disappointment and hurt.

Stupid People

So I've been watching a lot of Cops-style shows on TRUtv (on Dishnet). They have a lot of chase scenes which I find incredibly interesting to watch. I sit on the edge of my seat waiting for the accident that's sure to come. But what I find to be almost more disgusting than the suspects running (or why they're running) from the cops is the people on the streets and highways that don't get out of the way of the cops!! These people are completely oblivious to their surroundings and make the jobs of the cops that much harder.

I am also highly annoyed by the clips of "peaceful protesters" that quickly turn into riots because these people don't want to be repressed by "the man", aka the police trying to keep things orderly.

Ugh...just 2 more reasons why I hate people.

haha

so this lady wanders in off the street and asks to borrow 2 AA batteries to test a discman that she might buy off someone from the street. I tell her I don't have batteries, sorry. She asks again (while I'm in the middle of telling her no, btw), so I say again "Sorry, I do not have batteries for you to borrow." She goes "But I'll pay you." So I raise my voice "I DO NOT have batteries for you to borrow!"

She gets this disgusted look on her face and was like "You don't have to be mean, I was trying to be polite." I say "Well, I repeated myself 3 times - I do not have any batteries for you to borrow." She stood there kind of stunned for 15 seconds, then says "You can catch more flies with honey than vinegar. You should remember that." "Thanks," I say, and she starts walking out the door. But before she's completely out she says "You know, you're not pretty enough to be that mean."

Hahahaha What??? I'm ugly, so I should be nice to people???

Geezus, people are dumb!


Edited to add:

This song seems appropriate to this post: JoDee Messina - My Give A Damn's Busted

On the radio

This morning, our wonderful San Francisco Mayor Gavin Newsom was on my favorite radio station doing a short interview. He's been the pioneer in this city to legalize same sex marriage. In 2004, he opened up marriage licenses to allow same sex couples to get married. That summer, thousands of gay couples got married, only to have the courts overturn each and every one.

Earlier this year, the state Supreme Court ruled that it's unconstitutional to restrict marriage to only straight couples. Thousands more have married this year, legally. But now there's Proposition 8 on our ballot that's designed to strip our rights to get married, and of course there are commercials for both pro and con. The con commercials have spread lies - saying that if the measure doesn't pass and it remains legal for same sex couples to marry, then it will be mandatory in schools to teach children about same sex marriage and all things gay. They're using scare tactics to get people to vote Yes on the ban. They're also using Mayor Newsom's own words against him. At a rally regarding Same Sex Marriage he said it was coming "whether you like it or not."

Anyway, they were asking him about that statement and how it's being used. He said he has no regrets, but is saddened by the other camp using his words in a negative light. The DJs then took a caller named David who had some concerns about the proposition. Just to preface this, he said he is a black gay man with an 8 year old daughter. He said he's for the proposition (against gay marriage) because he doesn't want his daughter learning about being gay while she's so young. He said that being gay is an "adult lifestyle and choice". He spouted off more ignorant thoughts, but I've blocked them out. LOL. Mayor Newsom then asked if David was educated about the Civil Rights Movement and if he was OK with his daughter being taught about that. He says "Of course, it's history". So the mayor asked him if he'd be OK with his daughter being taught all history - including gay history (Stonewall). The guy kind of stuttered, so one of the DJs asked if David would be upset if a right was taken away from him because he's black. David was like "Well, yeah."

This guy just doesn't seem to understand what an ignoramus he is and I'm shocked that as a double minority (black and gay), he has such a closed minded view about rights that apply to him and he's perpetuating hate and is going to teach his child that it's not OK to be gay and that it's a choice to be gay. WTF is that about? Who chooses to be hated?