Right on schedule

Yesterday was day 34 of my cycle and, on queue, my period showed up this morning.

I won't lie, I'm extremely disappointed. Now, unless I have multiples or a preemie, I won't be a mom before I turn 30. I know that's not the most important thing in life, but it was kind of important to me.

As disappointed as I am that I'm not pregnant, I also know that it's partly of my own doing. There are ways I could have tried harder, things I didn't need to have done, things I didn't do that I should have. I was trying to just be laid back about the whole thing and hoped that strategy would work. I know it's only 2 tries now, but I think it's time to change that strategy. This next round will be worked at harder.

To be completely honest, I'm most disappointed in myself for not having tried harder. I have no one to blame at this stage but myself. It's OK, though. I'm not really beating myself up for it. I'm just sad. Today begins a new cycle of trying and tomorrow's another day.

It'll happen.

Oops

i double checked what my cycles have been since january. this is how they went:

27days, 30 days, 27 days, 30 days, 34 days, 27 days, 30 days, 27 days

and now today's day 30 of this cycle..

i think i might still not be pregnant because this morning i woke up with a minor migrane - that's always the lead-in to my period. then again, it could have been induced by the light that was streaming through the windows (our blinds are broken, so we can't completely shut out the light).

i don't know!

but i'm still waiting until at least tomorrow afternoon/evening to take another test if my period hasn't shown up yet.

hmm...i guess now that i look at the cycles, i did jump the gun with testing last night. i had too much pressure and i got impatient! lol. yeah, definitely waiting until tomorrow night for the next one.

dun-dun-dunnnnn

so i gave into peer pressure and took a pregnancy test at 8:30 tonight. i had gotten a little more anxious to see the results when i realized that my boobs were slightly swollen (the right one more so than the left) and, according to jenn, my areola were a little darker than normal.

the test was negative.

however, i still don't feel my period coming like normal. so, i'm going to wait and if i don't get my period by thursday night, i'll take another test, though i'm sure that if things come down to that i'll be preggo for sure. over the last 8 months, i've not had a cycle last longer than 32 days.

i'll keep ya posted.