It's been a while...

Wow, I haven't updated in a long time. Oops. LOL.

Well, right now I've got a few things up in the air regarding employment. I've interviewed at Vans for a position there. I want the Assistant Manager position that they're going to make available soon, but the District Manager doesn't think I'm qualified because I don't have retail management experience. I think that's BS because I've got 3 years experience as a Store Manager of storage facilities and training and managing staff. Whatever.

I did get a call from an old supervisor who says he's going to ask around and help me find something. If I don't hear back from him by Thursday, I'm giving him a call again. It's for a very large storage company I used to work for, so I just have to hold out and possibly relocate, but that's OK with me...but sooner is better.

On the vehicle front, my dad just bought a car today from the dealer he works for and is selling me his truck. Woo hoo!! I've wanted to buy his truck from him for a long time, so this is so awesome for me! It's also a double bonus because I get to make payments to him on a vehicle I know is reliable. Yay!

In other news, Jenn's moving out on Sunday and I'll have this place to myself. She's still applying like crazy to other companies, so who knows when she'll find something else, hence the reason I need that storage job to come through fast. lol.

So some good news, some wait-and-see news, but all in all, things are going pretty well right now. =o)

Oh yeah...I chopped about 4" off my hair today. I've been growing it out for years and it was at my bra line finally, but now it's just below my shoulders. I couldn't handle it! LOL.

And...that's about it. LOL.

Cycle 10

So I made the executive decision to skip May's cycle so I could have a break from the stress. Unfortunately because of my scheduled trip to see my friend Riki in Oregon (who gave birth to my niece last night!!!), I'm missing the June cycle by about 2 days. Ultimately I think this break is a good thing, but I feel so down in the dumps about it.

My friend Ashley gave birth to her 3rd baby (but first daughter) 5 months ago. Riki had her daughter last night. A triplet mommy who's blog I read is going to give birth to her surprise baby #4 this Friday, I believe. And another triplet mommy who also has an older child just found out she's preggo with her surprise baby #5. While I'm so incredibly happy for all of these women, I can't help but be incredibly jealous at the same time.

When I come back from Oregon and we try in July, that'll be our first anniversary of trying to conceive. I really hope that I do get pregnant by the end of the year. Past that, I know that I'll have to start seeing doctors and such to make sure nothing's wrong, but I'm incredibly frightened that something is wrong. Then again, I really think that I may have had a miscarriage last month - there was tissue I discharged that just didn't look normal. So that may be a positive sign. Who knows.

All I know is that patience is not a virtue I have.


Edited to add: I just remembered...2 old high school friends that I've reconnected with through Facebook are currently pregnant. Ugh! Again, happy for them, but why can't it be me?!?! :::shakes fist in the air:::

Cycle 7

I was talking with Riki around noonish about whether my period had started (it hadn't) and about the cycles I charted last year. We were trying to figure out if this was, in fact, another 34 day cycle. Well, because of all the talk, I decided to take an HPT at around 1 or so. It was negative.

And then I went to the bathroom at 3:30 and there's my period.

That sucked donkey balls!

Needless to say, I'm unhappy. But, as someone pointed out, it could take between 6 months and a year to get pregnant, so I just need to be patient. I tell ya, though, I'm NOT a patient person. lol. This is not going to be an easy process, so I just have to throw my hands in the air and give up my control. It'll happen when it's supposed to happen.





Right?