How long will I be picking up the pieces

Finally updating on my Awesome-tastic Wednesday!!

My friend Amy and I had tickets to the Pick Up The Phone tour featuring Blue October. Blue October is one of my favorite bands and I've been eagerly waiting for them to come to San Francisco. I'm pretty sure I bought my tickets the second they went on sale. LOL.

While Blue October was in town, they did a short acoustic set at Crissy Field for Please Don't Jump. This group was created to help save a San Francisco resident who sent in an anonymous postcard to Postsecret threatening to throw themself off the Golden Gate Bridge this summer.


At this event, there were speakers from the Suicide Hotline as well as family members of 2 people who took their lives jumping from the bridge and a bridge jumping survivor. He jumped from the bridge 10 years ago today and is grateful to be alive and is working towards building a suicide barrier to prevent anyone else from joining the list of 1500 known jumpers who have died.


Here's one of the songs they sang. Should Be Loved.


It was a very beautiful event. We were invited to sign the banner.



After this event, Amy and I killed some time by hanging out in Crissy Field since it was a gorgeous day, then headed downtown for lunch at Max's Opera Cafe and get in line for the 7pm concert (which ended up being at 8, but whatever). We got really great spots in the venue. We were at The Regency Ballroom. There's no handicap seating (Amy's in a wheelchair), but we got there early enough to get a spot in the front row at the left side of the stage. We were OK there for a while, but this ignorant girl standing in front of Amy kept backing into Amy and accusing Amy of ramming her in the ankles. I almost punched the bitch out. If I hadn't been so excited to see Blue October, I would have. She was so damn rude, I couldn't believe it.

The concert was awesome!! The energy was amazing. Justin Furstenfeld is one of the best performers I've ever seen. He and Jared Leto take the cake. They live their lyrics, but Justin really takes it to a whole new level. He writes everything that he feels. A lot of it is real dark and most of Blue October's fans are people who have experienced a lot of those dark feelings and thoughts he's had. This is the second time I've seen them live and was just as amazed and blown away as the first.

Me and Amy


Justin (we were SUPER close!!!)


Here's my video of "18th Floor Balcony". This is one of my favorite songs of theirs.


After the concert, we waited around back to see if we could maybe get an autograph.....WE DID!! And got pics with Justin!!



He squished his face on my face!!!! OMG! I had my arm around his sweaty back and his was around mine. OMG. Swooooooon!!!!


After that epic day, I have been on a serious awesome letdown. LOL. I don't know how any other show will top this day.

If you want to see the entire day in pictures, click here.

What's happening to today's kids?

So it's really no secret that I detest 90% of teenagers and young people. I have no tolerance for people who blatantly disregard and disrespect authority and their elders. I also have no tolerance for the parents of these hooligans who just don't give a crap about what their kids do, where they go, or how they act.

I love reality shows and the like, so I've been watching a lot of Most Daring on TRUtv. There are always clips of teenagers doing stupid, dangerous, cruel, and illegal things. The episode I just watched was entitled "Young and Dangerous" and it sickened me like you wouldn't believe. Kids with guns, holding up stores. Kids beating the crap out of each other so badly that someone loses consciousness and the aggressor runs off, leaving the victim on the ground. Kids running from cops, endangering everyone on the road. If I didn't watch as many of these shows, or read as much of the newspapers as I do, I would think all this stuff was made up, but it's not. I even witnessed 3 teenagers steal some guy's iPod on a MUNI train in San Francisco last year. When the victim ran after them to try to get it back, 2 of them (one a girl) turned and beat the crap out of the guy.

What the fuck is wrong with these kids? What the fuck is wrong with their parents? Where the hell are their parents? Where the hell is any good influence in their life?

Honestly, as much as I detest teenagers, I am also scared of them. I don't know if one is going to think I looked at them wrong when I'm walking through the mall and they decide to follow me and beat the crap out of me. I can't pick the good one from the bad one, so I just assume they're all bad. I know that's horrible of me to do, but given all I've witnessed in my life, I have no reason to like teenagers.

All I can boil it down to is absentee parents. It makes me sad, too, to know that these kids don't know right from wrong because they didn't have good influences in their lives. It's sad to know these kids will, most likely, be in and out of jail most of their lives. And it's down right depressing knowing that they don't think any higher of themselves. They think that they are just destined to be criminals and low lifes because no one has ever told them they were a good kid or told them they had potential to be something great.

And it hurts because I can't do anything about it. I can't fix them all. I can't fix even a lot of them. But, maybe one day, I can help even just one. I think once the babies come, I'm gonna try to go back to school and do social work.

It's never too late for college, right?