Grandma Update

Sunday afternoon, I went to see my grandma with my parents. She was looking pretty good. She's not in much pain, but her meds make her nauseated, so she's not eating much. Also, she's really tired. She took an hour-long nap after we got there.

She really does look frail, if I'm being honest, but I think that's because she just doesn't feel well. She was sad she couldn't eat any food (she wants to but is afraid of her stomach getting upset and throwing up), but said she'd try a little bit at some point. We left a bunch of food for her, so I hope she got to enjoy some of it.

At one point when we were there, she was lamenting over the fact that she bought a TV for her bedroom because she now thinks it's a waste of money. She said she thought she'd "go fast" and would be in bed most of the time, but now things are "dragging on" and she much prefers to be in the livingroom. LOL. She's a crazy woman. I think part of her wants to just give in and let whatever happens happen, but I think she's really fighting on the inside.

My aunt Pamela has been spending a lot of time with Grandma since she's not currently working. She took a leave of absence because her Lupus flared up. My cousin Sierra also moved into the basement so she can be there when no one else is. What I find interesting is that her boyfriend is living there with her. 12 years ago, my grandma cried because I was moving in with my boyfriend and would be "living in sin". But I guess things are different now for the youngest grandchild. Then again, she's 21 and I was only 18 at the time. LOL.

Anyway...I think my grandma is still going to be around for a bit.

Video of the week.

It's been a while since I did one of these, but I couldn't resist. Cake Wrecks twittered this video this morning. It's awesome! It makes me want to go back to working in an office with cubicles. LOL

And the hits keep coming...

My grandma has not had it very easy for the last few years.

Starting 15 years ago, she's gone through the following:
She had 2 heart attacks in the same day
She fell and broke her wrists.
She fell and hurt her back.
She had 2 back surgeries between Nov '07 and May '08.
She's over come lung cancer twice - caught early and the spots cut out.
I think she's in the early stages of Alzheimer's.
She's had numerous falls over the last year, continuously bruising her tailbone and injuring her back.

She finally went to the hospital on Monday to have her back looked at. They did a minor surgery to relieve some of her pain and discovered that she has Stage 4 Bone Cancer. I'm not sure what kind of treatments they're going with right now, but she has already been sent home (she was sent home the same day as her procedure). Her current doctors are working with the insurance company to approve a bone cancer specialist that could alleviate her pain and give her another 2 years.

My grandma has an expiration date and I don't like it.

I don't like that this is what it takes for me to step up and be the grandchild I'm supposed to be. I'll be visiting her next week. I'm going to make a conscious effort to visit her every week for as long as she's here.

I'd like to ask that you please donate to anyone and everyone you know that's fundraising for cancer research. Any kind of cancer research.

Right now, Jen @ The Amazing Trips is accepting donations for her Avon Breast Cancer 3-Day walk.

And Lani @ Triplets: Who Knew? is accepting donations for the Leukemia & Lymphoma Foundation Marathon.

Cancer sucks.

What a weekend...

So I spent the weekend at the County Hospital getting my gall bladder out. It's so not what I had expected to be doing this weekend, but it couldn't wait. LOL.

All last week I'd been having severe abdominal pain and finally went to the ER on Friday morning. I was kept in the ER all day while they ran labs and did ultrasounds on my belly. At 8pm, I was finally given a room. I shared my room with a very sick older lady. She slept most of the time, as did I, really. I didn't really sleep much last week, so I was constantly nodding off. lol.

I had my surgery done at about 3pm on Saturday and was hopped up on morphine for the rest of the night. It was a really quick, easy surgery. It was laproscopic so I have 4 puncture wounds in my belly and that's it. They're pretty sore today and the one under my belly button is pretty sore and a little swollen, so I'm going to take it pretty easy today.

Sorry if I hadn't told you about what was going on...I just didn't want to freak anyone out or not be able to keep up with who I was updating. But it's all good now!

This was my first surgery, too. I'd never had to have anything done before. It was kind of nerve wracking. But I guess I've "popped my cherry" so to speak, so if anything else happens, I won't be so nervous. lol.

So how'd you spend your weekend? ;o)

Gay Days @ Disneyland

We had so much fun this weekend!! The drive down and back wasn't too horrible, considering we took my dad's truck and couldn't drive faster than 65. Both days, Jenn and I were up at at the park by 8:30am and didn't leave until past 10pm. The park was open until midnight both nights, but we just couldn't make it that far.

Best discovery ever: Big Thunder Mountain Railroad in the dark. It's so awesome!!

Since we were with friends, I was able to finally ride Tower of Terror at CA Adventure. That scared the poop out of me, but I'm so doing it again when we go. LOL. Hell, I'll go by myself if I have to!!

Being at the park surrounded by so many other gay people was just so awesome. Watching the "straights" try to figure out why so many people were wearing red was awesome. LOL. Confusion, then recognition, then more confusion. The best part was when we came across a group of 100 bears (big, hairy gay men) at Small World. People were dumbfounded at all these giant men in red. Awesomeness!

I can't wait to go again. I think we'll definitely go back for another Gay Day. Next time, we're all making matching shirts!

I love hanging out with my boys Jimmy & Miguel and this weekend was an absolute blast with them. They are just so funny and so awesome.

I can't really put much else into words, so I'm just gonna link to my pics on Facebook. Enjoy!

Disneyland, here we come!

So, in approximately 24 hours, I will be arriving in Anaheim. Jenn and I will be spending the weekend at Disneyland. I am so excited!! It's Gay Day "Weekend" at the park, so we've packed our red shirts (and some pants), and will be meeting up with a bunch of friends. As of last weekend, DL is decorated for Halloween, so it's going to be extra fun. I've never been to DL for any holiday, so to go for my favorite holiday is really special. I seriously cannot wait. I'm sure my work shift is going to drag like hell. lol.

I'll be sure to post some pics when we get back. We're taking the laptop with us just in case we fill the camera's memory card. lol. Last year we took about 120 pics and it was just a normal weekend. I'm sure we'll take at least double that this weekend.


In other news, I'm pretty much all moved into my bedroom. I've even put stuff up on the walls! I did that today while I was packing for this weekend. I need to pick up a couple of poster frames, though. I have my NKOTB poster that needs a frame, plus I have these 2 Mexican paper cut out things that need frames. I'll take pics when they're up so you know what I'm talking about. LOL.

I also realized just how out of control my purse collection is. LOL. I filled a large storage tote with around 12 - 15 purses and 2 tote bags...plus I have 3 sling bags that don't fit...then there's 2 other purses that didn't fit...and then there's 5 more purses that I put on display on a shelving unit next to my bed. I'm sure my counts are short, too. LOL.

I also have a problem with sunglasses. Hanging on our mail sorter/key hook thing, Jenn and I have all of our sunglasses. There are 11 pairs of sunglasses. 9 black, 1 blue, 1 red. All but 2 black ones are mine. LOL.

Don't even get me started on my shoes!! Seriously, I think I have 20 pairs...and I threw out 6 or 7 pairs when I moved rooms.

One day I'll take pics of my collections. LOL. I keep saying that I don't have anything to show for my money, but then I see these collections and go "oh yeah".

The Blame Game

I'm used to being the bad guy. Sometimes it really is my fault, sometimes I just don't argue and take the fall. Either way, I generally just accept the blame for whatever fight or argument or whatever happened so that there's no fighting. I hate fighting. But someone always needs to play the blame game.

Jenn and I know the truth - there's no one to blame. Things just didn't work the way we wanted them to, so we're taking measures to create our own happiness and truly discover who we are as individuals. There's nothing bad there, right? No. We're still friends. We're still living in the same home. We're still incredibly supportive of each other.

But I get the feeling that people may be angry with me. But that's just fine. Well, no, I wish they weren't mad at me. I don't like people mad at me, but I don't like to fight or argue, so I'm just leaving it be. Things will blow over and be fine like they always are. And if they're not, I suppose I know where loyalties lay and I know who my friends truly are.

All I know is that I'm too old for this bullshit. I'm moving on. I hope everyone else does, too.

I'm so weird...but we already knew that.

I anticipate getting sick. Not vomiting sick. Not fever sick. I just want a cold. LOL.

Well, I think I want one until I actually have one, then I'm miserable. LOL. I just anticipate getting one and am actually disappointed when I don't get a cold.

I'm so weird.

On the work front...

So I've been having a real good time at Bath & Body Works. It's an incredibly fun place to work. I love everyone that I work with (save 3 exceptions). I love our products. I love that the company is very Woman-centric. I love that we sponsor a family or a women's shelter during the holidays. I love that we make people happy.

What I don't love is having to work for someone that I believe has a drug problem. We have a new co-manager who has a lot of personal problems and tells us about them. First, I think that's highly inappropriate for her to talk about to any of us. Secondly, she shouldn't be bringing her issues into work, manager or not. On Saturday morning I worked with her and quickly realized she was high as a kite. 3 weeks ago, I opened with her and she was in the back office crying and telling me about her personal issues and how she passed out the night before after taking too many Tylenol on an empty stomach. Later that day, she gave 2 different versions of her story to other coworkers. Saturday morning, I'm pretty sure she was either on Oxy, heroin, methadone or crack. They all have similar looking highs - slowed speech, slow blinking, slurring, balance issues. They're narcotic highs. I saw them all when I worked in San Francisco. The closing manager, who came in close to the end of my shift, saw it, too.

In short, our store manager is aware, has already called HR, and has put everyone on alert to watch for the signs of drug use while on the clock. None of us like the co-manager. She's too ghetto to be a manager. She doesn't speak proper English. She's not a self-starter (she waits to be told what to do or ask someone who's doing work if she can help). She's insincere with her praise and compliments. I think we're all just waiting for her to fail.

It's hard, but we just have to be patient. I have no doubt that she's going to screw up and get herself fired.

In GOOD work news, my store manager told me today that she's working on a plan to get me more advanced in the company. Yay! This will help get me more hours and have some real sense of responsibility. This excites me! Maybe if the co-manager gets fired, I can sneak up and take that place. The 2 sales leads we currently have can't take that position, so maybe I can jump up there and take it. I've actually had a couple of coworkers ask why I'm not a manager or sales lead. LOL. I've had a couple of new people assume I was a manager of some kind. LOL. I guess I still carry myself that way, but I know these people have always seen me work my butt off and kind of take charge. It's just in my attitude when I'm at work. I'm far from lazy or passive when I'm at work.

Also, since I am still just part time at work, I am looking for something else that is part time - just to help out at least through Christmas. Full time work just isn't panning out, so I'll take what I can get. Last night, at 12:30am, I responded to a Craigslist ad for an assistant at a daycare. I think I'm crazy. LOL. Why would I do that?? I don't like other peoples kids!! Oh well, whatever. I get to play with babies. We'll see if that comes through. It's just a daycare, not a preschool, so I don't need ECE credits, thankfully. I can't try taking that class again. LOL.

So that's the news on the work front. When/If things change, you'll be the first to know. ;o)

Flash Mob

Best Flash Mob EVER!!! This includes the Sound of Music one I posted a few months ago.